the eternal student

The last seminar at uni, that I took part in, was about lifelong learning and the empirical access to it. The interesting thing about lifelong learning is: it used to be everything happening in an institutional context, ie all of the teaching in schools and such. Nowadays it is considered almost all the learning that we do after and outside of school, so even visiting a museum or teaching yourself a foreign language is lifelong learning. I really like the new definition, which makes it way more attractive, although even harder for research. We're all learning all of the time, about new transport systems in cities we visit, about new cultures or political systems, about new words from the younger people (or from our grandparents) and we learn so much about ourselves almost every day.
I love it! I'm so curious, so eager to learn as much as possible. Ok, only the stuff that interests me, so no programming, maths or economic details, but cooking, music, languages, people. I'm highly motiviated to try once more to learn spanish (during the first try we didn't become amigos) and to be a better ukulele player, all before the end of the year. Sounds good, doesn't it? But there's a problem.

I'm so curious, so nusy to stick my nose into everything, that it stresses me a lot. It just made me sick. I'm at home because I got a cold about 6 times or more since september, I'm always tired and everyhting but relaxed. I really need a break, I'm doing too many things at once. I know, I always did, and sometimes struggled, but I never had so much pressure! I have to work because of the money I need and the money I want (to save), I have to write my diploma thesis because the uni says so and it'll cost lots of money and time if I had to extend... Alright, ultimate frisbee is not necessary in that sense, but I have to do it because it makes me happy and I need to move. So I feel the soltution is found in between.

I have to learn something else than spanish and playing the ukulele, much sooner than until the end of the year. And that is to relax. To focus on some and not worry about small things. To breathe and smile instead of getting angry and distracted. (It doesn't sound like a big deal, but everone who knows me knows how easily I freak out.) To learn that might be easier than programming but it's still as unpleasant as details about economy. But if I want to do me some good, I should start learning.