until I have enough

"say you will, say you won't, make up you're mind...!"
after I had a nice Breakfast In America and heard Angel In The Centrefold and despite my annoying cold, I believe I Can't Stop!
I'm sick, so sick of being asked "How you're doing?" and not having a convincing answer. I'm sick of being Lost, sick of waiting, sick of thinking of him. Life won't happen whilst sitting at home, waiting for it to knock on the door, and problems won't be solved by only thinking about them. Isn't that cute? The little girl's growing up! I wanna thank my parents,...
But seriously; of course, this won't be the end of my depression, come on, it's not that easy!! But first I'm not sad all the time, more in general, under the surface, and second every now and then I gotta feel down, even if it's just to appreciate the happy times!
I guess I knew I would come to that point. That's the advantage of thinking a lot, I kinda know myself and know how to compensate mistakes etc. : just behave "wrongly" until getting sick of it! So thanks to all my friends who had the patience to wait for this point and kept on believing and cheering and kicking my ass. (I start truely believing in what you are saying, promised!) Hopefully these few simple sentences explain a bit what was going on... Basicly the only thing you need to understand is that I'm aware of what's happening, for most of the time, but understanding and feeling are two different things. I comprehend my situation and that I (finally) need to get out of it. Nevertheless, I gotta get through it first of all, meaning acting out my moods, until I have enough... Sorry, but surpression doesn't work for me!

Wow, it sounds like a unusual long excuse, but I rather wanna remeber everyone of a simple fact we may forget about every now and then: that apart from all our problems and apart from the question who caused them, life is just about how you see it, it all depends on your attitude.
Isn't it nice to know that you always have the choice?!

Can't stop the gods from engineering
Feel no need for any interfering
Your image in the dictionary
This life is more than ordinary
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Can't stop the spirits when they need you
This life is more than just a read thru